Still here in 2022, self-therapy talk

 I must admit that is not as easy as before, working as a solo game dev. Since getting older really gives you a more "special" perspective and the previous events of 2021 had led me with some emotional scars, that seems to be healing in a way since I had given myself time to heal. But i feel somehow ashamed if I am not over emotional since i have seen people experimenting even worst experiences, i just can't handle some concepts very well, i just hope that things will get better.

I remember working as a game dev in 2017, I could spend all day with full determination working on every aspect of the game as much as I want (overworking like 16-18 hours); thinking that in 5 years or so I would have something solid to hold on to, but making video games never gets easy and the depression gets bigger with every failure making things slower.

It is difficult. Is not like I have regrets of becoming a game dev but it for sure had let me think about all the time I had invested, had this tunnel vision of going all in and was careless with everything else, from sleep schedules to social skills, is like everything is just isolated.

I hope that i could finish the game at the end of the year, but i will not rush it, if necessary i could move the date for the next year to fill the development' shedule that i had created for it. 

Remember i want to release a full finish product, a new adventure for people. That is the idea.

Let's hope for the best.

Thanks for reading.